End of the Year

We have two and a half days left of school! On Tuesday, my oldest son graduates from fifth grade :( I am not looking forward to this. I remember bringing him home from the hospital. He had a head full of dark hair! He still has a head full of dark hair. He loves playing baseball and reading about dragons. He is very sensitive. Oh, how I am not looking forward to sending him to middle school! I wish I could just freeze time!

 

I am also leaving first grade :( My husband has been offered a job and we are relocating 3 hours away. I am in the process of interviewing for a job. It has been very challenging for me to step out on faith. I feel like a "fish out of water." Even though I have connections in the school district, I am considered external. Many schools filled their positions with internals, and only a few schools are now looking at externals. There is a definite possibility that I will no longer be in first grade, which I have taught the past 11 years. Plus, I am the insurance carrier. I have two children with pre-existing conditions. We are looking at COBRA just in case I don't find anything. It is very expensive, but we will make it work. It has been extremely hard waiting, and I am praying everyday for God to give me peace. I know that He has control. Today's sermon in church talked about worrying. I cannot worry. He has placed everything else for us with this move. He will take care and put me at the school that he wants me at. I have become "comfortable" in first grade, and now I need to step out on faith. There is a song that I love! It reminds me that God is in control. Sometimes I just need to stop and listen to Him.

 

 

Help Me Find It (2012)

By Sidewalk Prophets

 

I don’t know where to go from here
It all used to seem so clear
I’m finding I can’t do this on my own

I don’t know where to go from here
As long as I know that You are near
I’m done fighting
I’m finally letting go

I will trust in You
You’ve never failed before
I will trust in You

[Chorus:]
If there’s a road I should walk
Help me find it
If I need to be still
Give me peace for the moment
Whatever Your will
Whatever Your will
Can you help me find it
Can you help me find it

I’m giving You fear and You give faith
I giving you doubt
You give me grace
For every step I’ve never been alone

Even when it hurts, You’ll have Your way
Even in the valley I will say
With every breath
You’ve never let me go

I will wait for You
You’ve never failed before
I will wait for You

[Chorus]

I lift my empty hands (come fill me up again)
Have Your way my King (I give my all to You)
I lift my eyes again (Was blind but now I see)
‘Cause You are all I need

[Chorus]

 

If I find something, I will let you know! Pray for me and my family as transition to a new location. Pray that I am able to find a job!